Contrary to the post title, I have not weighed in. Each Sunday I normally attend a Weight Watcher's meeting where I get my official weight for the week and, so far, by each Monday I've had a post saying my gain/loss and what my plans are for the week ahead. But, this week I didn't go to my meeting.
I didn't go this week not because of a perceived gain, my last check at my home scale on Saturday I was actually down, but this weekend has been very hectic and busy. Also, I just haven't been in a good place mentally.
Have you ever felt that if you saw that gain that you might spiral out of control? That is sort of how I've felt. This whole week I've been trying to fight the urge to eat badly. So far while on Weight Watchers I haven't really had an issue sticking to my points or allowing for the occasional splurge, but this week was different. I've noticed that I've been feeling very stressed this past week, for a number of reasons, and in return I've wanted to eat everything in sight.
It would be easy for me to give you the loss total that I saw on Saturday and walk away from this post. Leave it all sunshine and rainbows and give the impression that every week is wonderful, but that isn't real life. With this blog I've committed to being honest with myself. I've disclosed my biggest gains and losses. To have posted the unofficial loss seen on my scale would be a lie of omission perhaps. Because the truth is I saw the loss in the morning but stressed and anxious about many things in my life I went out to lunch. At lunch I had a healthy grilled chicken an on plan meal. As the day progressed I felt that calling to "cheat.' During the day I decided that I wasn't going to weigh in. Then I went out and had a cheeseburger for dinner, yes sue me.
I can't say that my stress disappeared after my food indiscretions, it didn't, but I just felt like I needed a break. I didn't want to see the scale. I didn't want to think about numbers, calories, points. . . .
I enjoyed my dinner. Then I went to see a musical and I had a good time. Then I slept in. I missed my meeting, the first meeting I've missed in months. Then I celebrated my niece's birthday with pizza and a cupcake. It appeared that I lost all willpower. My only accomplishment for the weekend was not giving into the call of Diet Coke, which I now haven't had in almost 3 months.
The weekend hiatus is not ideal. At first I felt annoyed with myself. It would appear that I've made such little progress by allowing myself to go off the deep end, but part of me feels like I needed to. With anything in life, what matters most is what you've learned from mistakes.
What I've learned is that I need to recommit. It is one thing to say things and another to actually do. I am making such progress on the fitness end. I do feel motivated by all the things I never could have imagined I'd be able to do, but I need to work more again now on my food plans.
I believe I have changed, despite a bad weekend. I'm ready to keep changing. I'm ready to put whatever negative thoughts that have held me back this past week away and to somehow find it in me to get back to that highly motivated state. I know I can. I'm happy with myself and that is all that matters.
And really, how could I not be happy? Besides eating, I did have a great weekend! The Pens even won!
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| Pic from Sunday night's game I attended. The Pens beat the Tampa Bay Lightening 5-3! |
How did you do this week?
Aw! I think we've all had weeks like this. I know I have! Just hang in there, and you will get back on track. Hopefully this week won't be as stressful! You got this!!
ReplyDeleteCandis is right. We have all had these feelings and things like this happen one time or another. I really, really love the quote and it is so true. Some days, our motivation level is higher than others but just stick with it and the results will be fabulous! And good job on the Diet Coke! I love Diet Cokes, I admire you for being able to stay away from them! Have a great day!
ReplyDeleteTheresa
The key to success isnt avoiding failures, its picking yourself back up when you do fail and not quitting!!
ReplyDeleteYou can do this and you will!!! When I am in the state of mind that you are right now, sometimes it helps to take things ONE meal at a time... otherwise it could end up spiraling into a mess of one bad meal after the next. You got this! You can clean your eating back up and drink alot of water to flush all that junk out and it will be like it never happened... the road to losing weight isnt a straight one, there are ups and downs along the way!
YOU GOT THIS! :)
I think this post is great this is exactly why I didnt weigh myself for the first 30ish lbs I lost. We often put so much on that one little number that we can miss out on actually living life. Our lives are not defined by a number. I hope your musical was awesome keep going girl this week will be better :)
ReplyDeleteI did horrible this week. From pizza to ice cream to soda...ugh! I don't even want to talk about it! My friend is getting married in two months and I want to lose 20 pounds by then...so I'm starting today, I swear!!! :) All of us fall at one point (or many points) in our journey, whatever that journey may be, but we just need to get back up and keep going.
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Halee
If you didn't have a week like this every now and then, you wouldn't be human! I applaud you for being able to recognize your temptations and fighting them as well as you did!
ReplyDeleteIf one cheesburger is all it takes to throw the diet off, we would all be quitters. You've got this! We're all here cheering you on, through the gains, losses, and cheeseburgers :)
We all feel this way and if not looking at the scale for a week makes you feel better. Dont look at her for a week. You just hop back on the wagon and keep pushing
ReplyDeleteLOVE YOU! Hang in there girl!!!! You are going to be JUST fine! I had a craptastic fully of carbalicious crap myself!
ReplyDeleteI've had way too many weekends/days like this since I've changed my lifestyle. I'm glad that you are going to get back at it and not let what happened get you down. That shows real growth!
ReplyDeleteI felt the same way you did over the weekend. I ate SOOO Much at a baby shower and then felt terrible mentally and physically. What motivates me for the week to come is remembering how I felt after I ate ALL of the junk, and realizing that I don't want to feel that way again!
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i feel ya... i weighed myself saturday and had lost 2 more pounds but then i kind of went crazy yesterday at carrabba's :(
ReplyDeleteKatie....everyone has weeks likes this...I did the week before and if you thought I was gonna weigh myself you were crazy. I didn't weigh myself and made a promise to myself to be better because I know that I am!!! You can do it and sometimes there will be weeks like this, but the important thing is to realize it when it happens and you have done that!!! You got this girl!!! :)
ReplyDeleteIt's tough to not take a break every now and again. Totally human!
ReplyDeleteAnd it's awesome to hear how motivated you are with fitness. Inspiring!
Keep it up!
I have had many moments when I am sure the scale is up and would rather just "give myself another week to fix it" and not go.
ReplyDeleteI have learned that it doesn't teach me anything and can open the door for failure. If you "quit" one time when it gets hard, it makes it easier to do it again...and again.
I took on a leadership roll with my TOPS group to help keep myself going, even through the more difficult times.
Even if I have a crappy week (or month as it is right now), I "buck" up and go get on the scales. I can manage a gain....whether it is 1/4 lb or 4 lbs. It makes me be accountable and gives me renewed faith in myself to fix it and work hard. The reality is, gaining is all apart of the process. Very few can follow such strict guildlines to be successful EVERY SINGLE WEEK!
I encourage you to go next time you feel like that...more than ever you need the support of your group at times like that!
Keep up the great work and here is to a fantastic week!
I was in the same boat as you this weekend (actually, for a long while now). Sometime around Christmas I decided to let myself just enjoy the sweet treats of the season... and then I just kept enjoying! It's so hard to find a good balance. No matter how into my workout routine I get, food always trips me up. And when you see yourself making progress, it's even easier to give in (because you earned it!).
ReplyDeleteLong story short: don't get too discouraged. It happens to all of us. The only thing we can do is accept it and recommit going forward!
I've had the same motivation issues for the past couple of weeks. I tend to make good decisions for a couple of days, then slack off, teetering back and forth between losing a couple pounds and gaining them back. I still feel good about the direction I'm going, because I've made a lot of strides already. It's a process, not an immediate thing. It's tough, but think about how far we've come and how AWESOME it will be to be there... :)
ReplyDeleteI think it is necessary to take breaks from it all!! Don't beat yourself up, you've accomplished a lot, one day won't kill you!!
ReplyDeleteCongrats to the winner! I haven't had the best week/weekend either. Regardless, your blog is so inspiring!
ReplyDeleteHappy Monday!
Sheree
The Hartungs Blog
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It doesn't sound like you did badly at all! A cheeseburger, a cupcake, and some pizza, and that's over two days!
ReplyDeleteI think you're doing really well!
Getting out of the "funk" is what is most important. We all go through that - I probably go through it at lease 1-2 times a month! ugh!
ReplyDeleteYou have come so far already - a little plateau isn't going to get in your way!
Lasting change isn't about deprivation, it's about moderation :) Don't spend another minute replaying the weekend in your head. Start tomorrow strong and keep on trucking!
ReplyDeleteGirl, we must have been on the same wavelength - I had one of those weekends, too! The important thing to remember is that we ALL do and that we take control of it the soonest we can. Sometimes I JUST NEED A BREAK...and I make the conscious choice to have whatever it is that I want. Then, I turn it around. It's the turning around that is important! I'm glad you had a fun weekend! You HAVE this and you just remember that, sister!
ReplyDeleteLove the quote. You really need to want to change and be ready.
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