First, I haven't updated in a while. I was really busy this past week and didn't seem to find the time to write out the posts I thought about. I then thought I'd update about my week on Friday, but then everything happened in CT and really there isn't much you can say. My mother grew up in CT near the shootings and I still have family there. I used to visit each summer and there isn't a more calm and peaceful place. It breaks my heart to think about what the families must be going through. There really are no words.
Ok, so I promise to update more. I need to get back into the habit of doing it regularly.
So, after a crazy week, I'm disappointed. I still haven't had a Diet Coke, I've been going on my elliptical, but then I gained 1.4 lbs. I'm frustrated. I felt like giving up and throwing in the towel for a brief moment after weighing. I feel like I've given up the foods and drinks that I enjoyed the most. I would have thought those changes would have reflected on the scale. But I gained. Frustrating.
I can't do that though, even think about not continuing. Yes, it can be frustrating and losing weight is difficult, but it is up and down. the gain means that I need evaluate again the foods I ate last week and make some more changes. This is a reason, not an excuse, but I have a chronic disease that I was born with that does make losing weight more difficult. My metabolism is basically non-existent at this point. I know this, I've known for a long time, but even with these changes and the fact that I seem to not be moving much I am thinking that maybe I need to change my medication, makes me wonder internally what my body is doing. So I will be seeing if I can get an appointment and seeing what changes, if any, I can then make.
Here are my stats for the week:
This week: +1.4 lbs :(
Total loss: 19.8 lbs
There it is. I'm not happy about it, but I'm determined to have a better week. Get my weight loss back on track. I can't think in the negative. I need to find the motivation to keep going. I won't keep falling.