Week 1 - Weekly Weigh In

I recently started again with a blank page.  Taking a step to start fresh and after having the blog for a week I went to my first weigh in Wednesday night.  I'm happy to report that I lost 6.4 pounds!

I'm very excited about this loss because the week prior I gained 2 after a crazy weekend of too many indulgences and my sister's birthday the week prior. I knew this week I needed to be on track and truly committed to be serious and not let myself backslide.  In total I've now lost 9.4 pounds since I recently rejoined weight watchers.  It is an excellent start and I am feeling very motivated to keep it up this week.

Obviously, with such a big loss this week I did a lot of things right.  Some of the things I contribute to making such an impact on the scale this week are:

  • Tracking everything
  • planning dinner each night, pre tracking it 
  • packing my lunch to bring to work every day
  • increasing 2 extra workouts into my week
I didn't go crazy and make tons of changes, but I've started myself in the right direction. Some things I could have improved on this week was planning better afternoon snacks.  I'm finding that if I don't have something in the afternoon around 4, before I leave the office, that by the time I get home later in the evening I want to eat everything in sight while I eat dinner.  I'm trying to allow for a protein snack for then to curb that.  

This week my goal is to get more sleep to allow for waking up early to sneak in my workouts.  Its so hard to get them in later if I don't force myself to get up and do it in the morning.  Really, I do feel better on days I workout in the morning too so I know once I get in a better habit of it I'll adjust.  

I'm still getting back into the blogging groove here, but thank you so much to all of you who have reached out and welcomed me back! I hope to get caught up with you all soon! 

When you have a lot of weight to lose. . .

“The elevator to success is out of order. You’ll have to use the stairs…one step at a time.” - Joe Girard
The most frustrating thing when you have a lot of weight to lose is how long it will take.  You'll have ups and downs, typically.  A journey that you thought would take a year could take 2, 3, or 5.  Who really knows?   

I know that when I made the choice that I needed to lose weight and change my life I had a few months of strong commitment.  I had motivation, I saw the pounds coming off, and then the honeymoon period ended.  Weight loss seemed so sluggish and I became easily discouraged.  Negative thoughts would creep in and it seemed impossible.  The alternative? Quitting and inevitably gaining more weight.  I can positively say that if you stop following your plan and allow yourself to get distracted that you will start to put the weight back on.  

I can't sit here and show personal success, at this point, but from my own experiences I know that it has been very up and down for me.  It is mentally tough.  Weight loss is a mental struggle as you work to keep yourself motivated and on track.

The key? Baby steps.  This is what I am doing at least.  Making small changes, one by one.  It takes weeks for healthy habits to form and time to adopt new routines.  Sometimes when I start and I'm all excited to make this life change I will do anything and everything.  I will go in with the "all or nothing" mentality.  The problem is that I burn out shortly after.  I exhaust myself with all these changes and then it seems like falling off the wagon, so to speak, is shortly thereafter.  

Weekends are always the most difficult days for me.  When I'm at work I have so much going on and my day is so regimented that I can have my food perfectly planned.  During the weekend I am going out, my schedule may not be definite, and I find it all in all harder to keep myself on track.  This past Friday I went to lunch with a co-worker and instead of getting something off plan like I was tempted to, I got a plain grilled chicken sandwich and instead of fries on the side I asked for the seasonal veggies.  I knew I was going on a date that night and my dinner may not have been on point so I wanted to make sure that I ate well at lunch.  Well, after having such a good lunch I felt empowered almost by that decision.  I then turned down the cookies another co-worker brought in.  Then on our date we spent the evening walking around mostly so I got a lot of steps in and didn't eat poorly. 

What I have found is that small positive choices spur more positive choices.  In my mind, because I had been so good on Friday I kept it going all weekend.  When I met friends for dinner on Saturday I suggested we go to Applebee's so I could have an under 500 calorie meal.  Tempted by ice-cream I opted for a weight watchers 2 point cone instead.  

Each of my choices this weekend were small.  But, those small choices will hopefully add up to a nice loss on the scale this week.  Without changing my whole life in a week, but simply making small, healthy choices, I got the motivation to keep it up and continue to make more small, healthy choices.  

This will take me years. YEARS.  It is too overwhelming and crazy to think about how long, but you know what? I'll never be off this "diet."  As much as I even hate hearing about how it is life change and not a diet, it is true.  Healthy habits are for a lifetime and not just a span of time.  

So, one step at a time I'll work on myself.  Little choice by little choice I'll see the results that I desire. 

Starting Anew

I started a blog way back because I enjoyed writing and wanted to connect with others going through a similar stage of their lives.  I loved the connections I made, but I soon realized that the time commitment was something I wasn't ready for.  Soon blogging wasn't fun anymore and seemed like a chore.  It was always only a hobby to me and months and months ago I decided that I needed to take a break.  I put too much pressure on it and it wasn't a good fit for my life at the time. 

A lot in my life has changed since I originally started typing out details of my journey.  I've had many ups and downs.  I've been thinking about returning to this space for awhile now.  Weighing the pros and cons in my mind about opening myself up on this page.  Eventually, I came to the conclusion that I've met some amazing people through this hobby and I do miss it.  This time I want to try again, but with less pressure and expectations.  My hope is to post a few times a week chronicling my journey.

I've had many "a ha" moment in my life and wrote many posts about how I was going to do this or that better.  However, I still have not been able to overcome my years of bad habits to say goodbye to my excess weight for good.  In the time I've spent away from the blog, I've really taken time to focus on myself and I now have a better understanding of my habits, triggers, and essentially my "whys."

I've rejoined Weight Watchers because I know that the program does work for me.  The key is following it! Tracking is essential and I know that when I follow the plan and track that I see results.  I know that if I get lazy and skip tracking then it is the first step towards falling down that hill and of course again. 

I'm now 29.  I'm ready to start that next phase of my life.  I'm no longer a student or a brand-new lawyer who is overwhelmed all the time.  What is important now, critical really, is focusing on my health and making the necessary changes now to stop the cycle that has seemed never-ending in my life. 

One of my major struggles with weight loss mentally recently has been focusing on my past "failures."  How many times have I started a diet to only regain the weight back?  It is exhausting when you feel you've failed time and time again and continually let yourself down.  But, what I've come to realize is that you've only failed when you completely quit.  Everyone has up and down periods and it took years to get to my highest weight and it will take a long time to lost it all.  

So, with all that being said, I am starting anew.  I'm letting go of the past attempts and moving forward.  I know I need to genuinely try to do this and follow through.  If you read before or just now want to follow along, I plan to update my progress along the way on this page.  If you are going through a similar journey please comment and share your page or story!



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